so, i have issues with eating carbs a lot…
does anybody know of any filling foods that don’t have carbs in it? I find myself eating carbs for breakfast AND lunch. :(
low carb and sugar fruits:
strawberries, papaya, watermelon, peaches, nectarines, blueberries.
fruit breakfasts are always great (and don’t be too afraid of the sugar in fruit, you need the energy from it for your day!!)
I think that people are very mislead when they believe that somebody who has bad habits necessarily means that they are a bad person. I happen to have bad habits, which are mainly dangerous to my own health and body; but I also happen to be a really kind and caring girl! Don’t judge me based on the things that are out of my control (which I also am trying extremely hard to gain control of!).
Need to get my PMA up again, these past three days have been really terrible. About an hour ago I went to a nearby swingset and just listened to my Sleep playlist, the air was really cool and it felt really nice. The ‘butterfly’ feeling in my tummy while going up and down made me giggle. Now I’m going to take a bubble bath and the night with some anime or a foreign film.
I’m quite certain that my oxycodone usage is finally taking it’s toll on my body and that I have another ulcer. I’ve been sick and vomiting for two days now. I thought it was due to pushing myself too hard during last night’s workout, but I know now that is definitely not the case. The same thing happened when I was having issues with morphine. Go figure that my first thought is: Oh, well, I’ll just pop a pill.. or two.. and the nausea will go away for a bit. But I suppose my best bet is to call my gastroenterologist, yep, he’ll be stoked to hear that I’ve been indulging and harming my body again! It’s a shame when you eat right and work out, but still have addictions that you have trouble controlling, and they end up just cancelling out everything that you work for. I’m working hard on my body, my soul is getting there, but my mind is seriously lagging behind. I thought it would help once I started weening myself off of my sedatives and anti-depressants, but that is not really proving to be beneficial. The thought of having so much junk in my body makes me cry, all I want is to be a normal 23 year-old woman. I don’t want these addictions, I don’t want these disorders and issues, I don’t want to have to take so much medication. You would think that being someone who studied psychology in college, I would know a better way around this.. But I don’t. At least that’s one thing I know I can discuss without fear with my psych.
Blah, 3:47am, oxy calls, good night.